Don't move!

Currently listening to: Jack Sparrow from Pirates Of The Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest

I never thought that I'd ever wish for time to stand still. Previously, when times were bad, I looked forward to having them pass me by as quickly as possible. When times were good, I looked forward to having them come by again as soon as possible.

I don't know what changed, but now, I find myself wishing that time would stand still, so that the good times will stay and the bad times will never come or not get any worse than it already is.

The past week

Currently listening to: Nothing

I've been slacking off so much for the past week, it's outrageous. I've been eating out so often for the past week, it's preposterous. I've been trying so hard to look the other way for the past week, it's ridiculous.

But, at the very least, I am beginning to get a hang of it, so maybe it's not all bad. I just have to keep reminding myself to not look. And, if I looked, to not think.

So yeah. That was what happened during the past week.

So hard

Currently listening to: Nothing

I am trying so hard, SO HARD, to not see, to not think, to not care. But it's SO HARD, because ultimately, I have to pretend to not see, to not think, to not care, when in reality, I can see, I am thinking, and worst of all, I care. Very much.

Drinking lessons

Currently listening to: Nothing

There is a reason why some people refuse to drink. Always listen to them when they say that they can't drink.

Scrub-a-dub-dub

Currently listening to: Noisy neighbours

What are you going to do if the person you like likes your friend, and your friend knows that you like that person but that person doesn't know, and that person is going after your friend but your friend rejects that person because of you?

Funny how scrubbing away in the shower triggers such random thoughts.

Julius and I

Currently listening to: Nothing

Julius Caesar supposedly said, "I come, I see, I conquer." Well this is what I say:

"Don't go. Don't see. Don't think. Don't know. Don't care."

Not worth remembering I know, but to me, it is invaluable.

Kill me now

Currently listening to: Tia Dalma from Pirates Of The Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest

I don't know why I agreed to go. I had the feeling that I was going to be very unsociable, but I agreed anyway. And so there I was, being obviously and painfully unsociable, while the rest were socialising.

I doubt any of you will be reading this, but I'll say it anyway. I'm so sorry people. I wish I could tell you why I was being so freaking unsociable, but I couldn't, and believe me when I tell you that it's killing me inside. I had wanted to put on a happy front and pretend that everything was sunshine and roses with me, but I hated the idea of pretending. Not that being unsociable was a good idea.

I am such a pain. Not just to other people, but also to myself.

Michael won again

Currently listening to: Nothing

It's so easy to blame others for your misery when it is your own shortcomings that is your downfall. And I finally know what "a whirlwind of emotions" is like. It's going from surprise, to happiness, to dismay, to disappointment, to frustration, to anger, and finally settling down on sorrow. All in a short period of 5 minutes. I have never screamed so much in my life. At least, not in frustration and anger. It really felt as if pulling my hair out and banging my head against the wall would've made me feel better. Dang it, even crashing the car felt like an escape.

Nokia 3250

Currently listening to: 髮如雪 by 周杰倫

Living in fear of losing something is not fun. Not a minute passes by without you worrying about losing that something. And, when you finally reach the unbearable point, you resort to taking stupid courses of action. Then, you will no longer be living a life of fear, but a life of regrets. Which is equally not fun.

On a 'funner' note, I've gotten myself a new phone! Happy! I will need to start saving real hard to cover up the expenses, but in the meantime, I'll just enjoy snapping pictures and listening to my favourite songs whenever I want.

BERSATU Games 2006

Currently listening to: Nothing

It has been a really busy week. I must've broken my own personal record for sleeping and waking up early EVERY day. It has also been a rather stressful week. Patience were tested to the limits, and tempers flared every now and then. But in the end, everything came together beautifully, and it was an experience worth remembering.

Good job TomTom! I don't know if I have been able to give you what you had wanted. I'd like to think that I've helped you in every way that I could. But you did the most out of all of us, including stressing yourself up to the maximum and pushing yourself to the limit. It's all over now, and it has been a great success. Give yourself a pat on the back, and please, go get yourself the sleep that you have been so deprived of for the past week. You deserve it more than anyone else.

Sports

Currently listening to: Nothing

It is time to wake up my dear. Wake up, and stay up. There is nothing for you down there, only sorrow and despair. You know that only too well, don't you my dear?

On another note, Aaron Lennon is a good player, Wayne Rooney is a foul-tempered player, and Michael Schumacher probably got pole position in the United States Grand Prix qualifying round because Germany beat Argentina in the World Cup.

Crumbling

Currently listening to: Just For A Moment by Aqualung

Just when I have decided to 'do the right thing', 'it' just had to happen. And I find myself being pulled back in, helplessly, but not entirely against my will.