Heart Battle

Currently listening to: Nothing

I really don't know what to do. On one hand, I feel unhappy that you made me out to look like a bad person. On the other hand, I feel guilty that you made me out to look like a bad person.

Was it my fault in the first place that things became the way they are right now? How did things become like this anyway?

I don't know. More like, I don't remember. God knows I've tried to, but I just couldn't remember how it all began. Or ended.

Perhaps, I should just stop waiting and start taking the initiative instead. Then maybe, just maybe, I won't feel so guilty anymore.

However, having said that, the most important question remains.

Is it more important that I feel less guilty, or more important that I feel less hurt?

Because if it is the former, chances are I will end up hurting myself. And if it is the latter, I may just end up hurting you.

So, should I hurt you to protect myself, or hurt myself to protect you?

Are you more important to me, or am I more important to myself?