Black

Currently listening to: Nothing

I didn't realise just how vulnerable my skin was to the bright, bright sun of Dunedin. Until I saw the tiny red spots on both my legs, the rather visible skecher strap lines on both my feet, and the very obvious change of skin colour on both my arms.

I guess I had forgotten all about the days when I marched for hours under the scorching sun of Malaysia and became as tanned as one could ever be. Dang it. Now I wish that I hadn't bared it all last weekend. Argh.

Best wishes

Currently listening to: 至少还有你 by 林忆莲

For starters, I am currently addicted to the song above.

For seconds, he is finally gone. And I regret that, up until today, which would be his first day at the new place, he has YET to mention to me that he was leaving or is no longer around. Perhaps, it cannot be helped, since we were never really close to each other. Perhaps, if it was the other way around, I would not have seen it as necessary to tell him either. Perhaps, it is finally time for me to let go, once and for all. Because obviously, I was wrong when I previously thought that I did, seeing as to how I became extremely emotional when I found out.

For two days, life felt a lot like the end, and it sucked, big time. Luckily for me, someone up there still loves me, because we were blessed with gorgeous weather over the weekend, and that helped a lot in restoring my mood. I had a good time on Saturday night, despite being absolutely sober and responsible for my drunk friends. And, I had a BLAST on Sunday afternoon, venturing out into the sea with friends and getting ourselves soaking wet.

For now, I just have to focus on the present, and the future, and completely let go of the past. Because, really, what is the point, when you are the only one holding on? At the end of the day, it will be my poor feet that suffer. And I lose money.

Emo

Currently listening to: Nothing

For the very first time in my 23 years of life, I threw an orange into the sea yesterday. Just before midnight. Before that, MiaoMiao had so kindly written on the orange my name and, upon my request, my email address instead of my number. It was a pathetic throw though, I must admit. It landed amongst the many many seaweed (or sea lettuce, as MiaoMiao puts it), and is probably still stuck there at this very moment. Tomorrow, some random person is probably going to see it, pick it up, and look at it with this absolutely weirded out look on his/her face.

Moving on to the "down" side of things, I am feeling incredibly emotional at the moment. I was before, and at one point even felt like crying, and almost did, but the orange took my mind off things for a bit, and now here I am, writing it down even though I should really go to sleep since I've got work in the morning. I truly wonder if I didn't bring it upon myself. Maybe, if I hadn't thought so much about it, or into it for that matter, I wouldn't be feeling this way at all. So stubborn.

Anyway, to end things off, I'm going to quote a friend and dedicate this entry to another friend:

Welcome to "shit hole" MiaoMiao.

You're one of us now. One of the "shit hole" people. Heh.

Mood swing alert

Currently listening to: Miserere Mei, Deus by Allegri

Maybe it is the lack of sleep. I do not know. But am feeling a little anti-social today. Am also a little tired, not so much physically, but mentally.

Have got to stop thinking.

Tradition

Currently listening to: Fluffy's Harp from Harry Potter & The Sorcerer's Stone

The streets of Dunedin were crawling with toga-wearing students today. How I wish that I was one of them. Unfortunately, the realities of life (work, difference in culture, lack of determination, etc) are such that I could not have been. So yeah. I had to make do with watching them crawl the streets of Dunedin. And making a friend honk and then shout/wolf-whistle at them.

Future divorcee

Currently listening to: It's Your Love by Gil

Apparently, I'll be married twice in this lifetime. The reason? I am too independent.

Fortunately, I am not affected by this at all. Really. I guess I am just like that. When I read all those horoscopes in the magazines, I read them not because I want to know what is going to happen to me on that day, or in that week, or in that month. I read them because I have nothing better to do. To me, they're very much like gossip. I read them, I let them in from one side of the brain, I let them stay in the brain for all of 5 minutes, and then I let them out of the other side of the brain. End of story.

I do wonder though, if it is a good thing or a bad thing, because I know for a fact that I am a very independent person. Hmm.

Chicken soup

Currently listening to: 但愿人长久 by 張學友

For some reason, time seems to pass by really, REALLY slowly at the moment. Maybe, just maybe, subconsciously, I do not want tomorrow to come. I said maybe. I am not sure about it myself.

Anyways, I just finished watching The Golden Compass. I don't really know what to say about the movie. It's not deadly boring, but it's not particularly entertaining either. Probably the most interesting bit of the movie is the polar bear fight. And that lasted for about, what, 5 minutes?

Oh, I watched Elizabeth: The Golden Age too. I didn't like it as much as I liked Elizabeth. Cate Blanchett was awesome, as usual, but Elizabeth: The Golden Age didn't have as much... 'ooomph'... as Elizabeth. I'm a little disappointed, but oh well.

Look at me

Currently listening to: Millenium by Robbie Williams

"But this is touching, Severus," said Dumbledore seriously. "Have you grown to care for the boy, after all?"

"For him?" shouted Snape. "Expecto Patronum!"

From the tip of his wand burst the silver doe. She landed on the office floor, bounded once across the office, and soared out of the window. Dumbledore watched her fly away, and as her silvery glow faded he turned back to Snape, and his eyes were full of tears.

"After all this time?"

"Always," said Snape.

Boycott!

Currently listening to: Way Back Into Love by Haley Bennett & Hugh Grant

Alvin & The Chipmunks is a cute movie. I am really curious to know how they filmed the voices of the chipmunks. Don't watch it in the cinema if you can help it, unless it is really cheap to do so.

Mad Detective, on the other hand, is not a cute movie. But it is interesting. And a little bit eerie. Keeps you at the edge of your seat for a while.

Update:

Juno is a good movie. Sweet and touching in its own silly way. You really should watch it if you haven't already.

Denial

Currently listening to: Nothing

The sky was so clear that, even with lights all around me, I could see the stars like never before. And they reminded me of you.

Happy Chinese New Year, my little darling...

Harry Nilson

Currently listening to: We Could Be In Love by Lea Salonga & Brad Kane

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Come back to me!

Currently listening to: From The Heart by Another Level

Dang it I lost this thingy which belonged to my cellphone. I knew that I'd lose it one day, judging from the way I used to play with it. Now it is really gone, and there is no way I can find it back. Unless a miracle occurs. Dang it. Sure I can make do without it; it is not an essential part of the phone. But still. I hate losing things. Who doesn't. Argh.

Mahjong

Currently listening to: The same song as before

I've had weird dreams before, but yesterday's dream was way, WAY weird. It was gory AND weird. It wasn't gory to the point of being a nightmare, but still gory. I am currently trying to remember the premise of the dream, which took me a while to figure out while I was in the dream. At the moment, I only remember this part of the dream where I was "flying" around a room. Or maybe it was jumping from one corner of the room to the other.

BF & BG

Currently listening to: Time To Say Goodbye by Andrea Bocelli & Sarah Brightman

I keep listening to this song over and over again. All of a sudden, I want to be an opera singer. Haha.

I watched two comedies back-to-back yesterday. Balls Of Fury and Blades Of Glory. I don't really have anything to say about Balls Of Fury. Blades Of Glory, well, I enjoyed watching the skatings. I wish I could skate like that. Not like Chad Michael Michaels or Randy MacElroy. But yeah.

And, just in case you'd like to know, I am now buying human pets. On Facebook.