Design for Living

Currently listening to: Nothing

It was pure torture, trying to finish watching this Chinese entertainment interview show on YouTube.

First of all, who in their right mind would put the song I Move On from the movie Chicago as the background music of an interview show? You'd think that, as an interview show, the focus would be on the interview. Well, it's a bit hard to FOCUS on the interview when you're playing a fast AND loud song in the background.

Second of all, the hosts of the show were absolutely unprofessional. They may think that they're funny, but to me, they're just plain irritating and rude. And I won't be surprised if the guests actually thought so too, judging from their expressions from time to time.

The one and only thing that kept me watching was the fact that my 大宝贝 was one of the guests. I was THIS close to giving it up, but in the end, I held on. Just for him.

Pathway

Currently listening to: Nothing

I am definitely not cut out for a "satisfying the client" kind of job. Because when I do something which may affect the client (note the "may"), I get stressed up about it. And the stress lingers around, even when I am not at work. Even after the problem has been fixed.

I hate that guilty feeling. I hate having to try to console myself, and then feel guilty about trying to console myself.

I have learnt my lesson

Currently listening to: 黑白 by 方大同

We should all learn this lesson. Seriously.

I have nothing more to say.

Polar bear

Currently listening to: I Dreamed A Dream by Susan Boyle

If you do not already know what exactly I am listening to at the moment, now's your chance to check it out.

The look on the judges' faces were absolutely priceless. Simon looked like a star-struck fanboy.

And yes, I agree with Amanda. We have all been cynical, myself included (even though I already knew before watching her sing that she was going to be awesome), and I w0uld like to apologise to Susan, despite the fact that she will not (never say never) be reading this blog.

Yumeka Sumomo

Currently listening to: 原來你什麼都不要 by 張惠妹

Apparently, there was this guy in Russia who had a fir tree growing in his lung. It really is a bit scary and gross, but I couldn't help but burst out laughing when I read one of the comments at the bottom of the page:

My grandmother is RIGHT. Never swallow the seeds, or you'll grow a tree inside of you, and branches will come out of your ears.

Hahahahaha!

Taco

Currently listening to: A Whole New World from Aladdin

So, I spent my Easter break in Wellington. It had been a gorgeous 4 days; I could not have asked for better weather. Surprisingly, I did not spend a whole lot of money while I was there (I only spent on food, and petrol for when I was driving to and from Christchurch), but that's alright, because shopping was not the reason why I went up to Wellington in the first place. I was there to attend a good friend's engagement party. And also to fulfil our yearly catch-up session.

I'm not finding it hard to accept that my friends are beginning to settle down (ie getting married, have children), but I still marvel at the fact that they are. I guess, despite having lived for a quarter of a century, I have yet to have experienced as many things as a lot of other people in this world already have at this age.

Oh well. At least I can say that I have lived long enough to personally witness a relationship start, made official, and end, all in the span of 6 months.

Speaking of experience, while I was in Wellington, I got to meet up with a friend whom I have not seen in a rather long time. It's funny how a conversation gets carried from one topic to another; two seemingly unrelated topics can somehow be connected by some random common ground. I do not remember how we got to talking about "the good old days", but we did. And so, something which had happened approximately 4 years ago was unexpectedly brought to light.

To be honest, up until today, my understanding of what had happened at the time is still very vague. I do not know how it all began, and I do not know if it was because of something which I had done. The one thing I do know, is that it had not been pleasant, and that I did not enjoy it one single bit. So far, it gets top billing as one of the hardest times of my life.

Having said that, I do not regret it happening, because it helped make me the person I am today I came out of it stronger (not physically, but emotionally and mentally), more independent, more resilient.


I grew up.


I've said this to the friend a few nights back, and I'll say it again now: it takes 2 hands to clap (I didn't exactly word it like this, but oh well). I do not believe that I did not contribute to whatever it was that had happened 4 years ago. Even if I do not know what my contribution was.

I do not think that any of the people involved in this matter actually reads my blog. However, if I am wrong, and you who are reading this right now know exactly what I am talking about (because you were involved), this is what I have to say to you:


Don't apologise.


Because if you do, then I have to apologise too. For whatever it was that I had done back then. And, if memory serves me right, we have already done that.

Frugal

Currently listening to: Nothing

My Isabella Anselmi flats are officially no more. You know that they are no longer wearable when it's wet on the inside on a rainy day. Like today. And no, I do not think that having an umbrella with me would've helped much.

2 more days before I'm off to Wellington for a long weekend. I can't wait. Wait for me girl!

Most of the scratches on both my hands have healed.

I've finished watching CSI Season 5 on DVD.

One day, sometime in the not-too-distant future, when I have more things to talk about, I will stop writing like this.

More sentences

Currently listening to: Nothing

I have 1 more cut on my right ring finger, and 1 on my left index knuckle.

I almost worked 7 days again this week.

I enjoy working the "swing" shift, but I can't wait to go back to the normal hours.